Disappointed

I'm always so fucking disappointed. i hate it so much. i hate hate hate it. i get so mad and upset. i don't want to get so disappointed. i always get my hopes up for something and i always think i can do it. but instead it just fucks me over in the face. i hate it. i get so upset i just want to break my fucking phone, its such a piece of shit. Nothing good comes out of anything! i fucking hate it. what the fuck do i do with nothing? i make something and it becomes shit or it backfires on me. what the fuck do i do? i hate being so disappointed, i wish something would change so that i don't get upset or disappointed.

why do you do this to me?
you must have a good reason.
could you tell me?
and then maybe...
i won't feel so down.