Dig me up from under what is covering the better part of me

9:07pm.

I like this font. I'm new to blogging. I've seen a whole bunch of blogs and I've heard you can earn almost a living by supporting advertisements on your personal blog... I don't know what to make this blog of... i guess it should be grammatically correct. i don't know, i'm positive the first couple blogs will be cant, jargon, rambling, and ranting lol. should i use internet speak? hmm i guess? maybe i'll just use this as a journal... ehh i don't mind but those don't work out for me often... i guess i'll start making good use of my camera and other sources of the internet for my arbitrary topics... i could start with myself...

i'm 19
i graduated highschool 2 years ago
worked for a year
social chaos
then i went to community college for a total of 1 year
i know a lot of people
but i don't think they care about me much
i have a few friends
sometimes better than none
i love cuddling
i have an ex in florida i've been with on and off for years
i'm not gay
my parents are spanish (mom=guatemalan dad=honduran)
i was born here in princeton, nj
i have 2 siblings, sister (18) and a brother (10)
i love computers
i'm a hopeless romantic
i don't know who i am
i'm always looking for that someone who says the right thing and fills me with that warm feeling
i don't like feeling lonely
i stay up late late
sometimes i feel insecure
i have a lousy job with normal people
i like Music, Movies, Tv, Books, etc just like the next person
i think i'm meant for something Great.

I got a job at a grocery store and i have never felt so out of place. i'm starting to feel like they all have such a better potential. Who cares about how much the carrots cost per pound or if the coupon expired yesterday? there are more important things to worry about, but it's up to them to worry about it. well we all start somewhere... coal to diamonds...