Pure morning

I'm not a morning person at all. I was at alex's house (Newtown, PA) till just now. I went over after work yesterday. i'm tired but it's too short to sleep but i might jus take a nap... thatd be nice... i have to shower anyway then go to work 10-6. i'm glad. i'm usually really talkative at work but instead, today, i will have my mouth shut and just

I'm a reasonable man get off my case... get off my case...

3:52am

i can do it
ahaha

i feel greAt and alive!

there is time for everything.

Disappointed

I'm always so fucking disappointed. i hate it so much. i hate hate hate it. i get so mad and upset. i don't want to get so disappointed. i always get my hopes up for something and i always think i can do it. but instead it just fucks me over in the face. i hate it. i get so upset i just want to break my fucking phone, its such a piece of shit. Nothing good comes out of anything! i fucking hate it. what the fuck do i do with nothing? i make something and it becomes shit or it backfires on me. what the fuck do i do? i hate being so disappointed, i wish something would change so that i don't get upset or disappointed.

why do you do this to me?
you must have a good reason.
could you tell me?
and then maybe...
i won't feel so down.

Dig me up from under what is covering the better part of me

9:07pm.

I like this font. I'm new to blogging. I've seen a whole bunch of blogs and I've heard you can earn almost a living by supporting advertisements on your personal blog... I don't know what to make this blog of... i guess it should be grammatically correct. i don't know, i'm positive the first couple blogs will be cant, jargon, rambling, and ranting lol. should i use internet speak? hmm i guess? maybe i'll just use this as a journal... ehh i don't mind but those don't work out for me often... i guess i'll start making good use of my camera and other sources of the internet for my arbitrary topics... i could start with myself...

i'm 19
i graduated highschool 2 years ago
worked for a year
social chaos
then i went to community college for a total of 1 year
i know a lot of people
but i don't think they care about me much
i have a few friends
sometimes better than none
i love cuddling
i have an ex in florida i've been with on and off for years
i'm not gay
my parents are spanish (mom=guatemalan dad=honduran)
i was born here in princeton, nj
i have 2 siblings, sister (18) and a brother (10)
i love computers
i'm a hopeless romantic
i don't know who i am
i'm always looking for that someone who says the right thing and fills me with that warm feeling
i don't like feeling lonely
i stay up late late
sometimes i feel insecure
i have a lousy job with normal people
i like Music, Movies, Tv, Books, etc just like the next person
i think i'm meant for something Great.

I got a job at a grocery store and i have never felt so out of place. i'm starting to feel like they all have such a better potential. Who cares about how much the carrots cost per pound or if the coupon expired yesterday? there are more important things to worry about, but it's up to them to worry about it. well we all start somewhere... coal to diamonds...